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well, since everyone start to blog about something, i figure i should too...

my life.... soo calm and boring... i feel like an ocean... so grand and careless... nothing seem to bother me.... this analogy remind me of the Avatar, moon and ocean spirit, push and pull, forever dance in the eternal cycle. SO, if that the case, i wonder what or who is the moon in my life?? the one that can push or pull me into something.. anything...

I mean my life is nowhere near perfect but i guess i got everything go for me...
In term of academic, I'm not a 4.0 student but no one thinks of me as intelligent inferior

In term of money, I got enough to spent on whatever I like and I'm not a burden to my parent financially. If i want something, I find my own money to get it.

In term of nuclar family, I have a loving parent, sister and a little brother. My asian family, well, let just count my cousins... upper 20.... too many little kids running around to count, so yea... BIG family, a chaos everytime my family meet. I talk to the cousins my age, make fun of my little cousins, talk about sport and play card with my uncle, even make bet against my grampa on which team gonna lose. There are time I dislike my family, from all the drama, arguing and love for money, but in holiday time, I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. I love my BIG family.

In term of religious life, I'm not perfect, I sin, I lie, I cheat, I get lazy, I have bad thought, I like to gamble, I'm very competitive, I'm irresponsible, and (for KS) i like wine alot..... the list go on... But I try to do less and less of that everyday (except drinking), maybe someday in the future, I'll be a better person than I am today... but this don't bother me much, morality is a lifetime progress... i think i got more time to be a better person. But what I know for sure is, I'm a better person than yesterday and a whole lot better than QUAN in the past.

In term of social life, I have friends, some closer than other, but I have a lot. Whenever there an events/activities i wanted to do, I never have a problem of finding someone to go with me. I go out to eat, movies, bowling, sport, ect... and since I just turn 21, BAR will soon merge into my social life also.. ^__^

I think the major missing piece of puzzle in my life right now is my love life, which is nonexistence... kinda sad if you think about it. I hate to admit it but I guess i'm kinda picky, but I can also justify this by i never really understand what love is. As TV define it, love = sex, and although i'm not a perfect Catholic, I understand the importance of abstinence, so what else is there? Love = companion? Like i said before, my life is like an ocean, calm and boring, lack of any real drama, i never really need a companion to talk about my feeling/problem... then what is the need for love?? I really don't know... i mean i like a lot of girls, don't get me wrong, some i like because they are really attractive/beautiful, other have a very nice personality, some is very easy to talk to, other is mysterious and strangely mesmerizing, BUT i don't think me being attractive to them mean love, never really understoood it. In summary, I understand maternal love, love for one's country, love for world peace and equality, love for one's family, love for one's friend, but never grasp the rationality in relational boy/girl love.

So yea, about the moon, what/who is the moon in my life??? World peace?? Billionaire?? Solve world hunger?? Cure cancer?? Date hot actress?? Own an island??
I believe in God, therefore, I know that he give me all this gifts for a purpose. I mean God give me a really good life, what is my purpose then??
God give me intelligent, and I use it to teach Sunday school
God give me a passion and a mediocre voice, so I join the choir
God give me a sense of humor, and I use it to make my friend laugh
God give me compassion, I use it to help people around me who need help
BUT in addtion to the goody things i did with my gifts, I also used it to be really cocky, lazy, and often annoy people.

SO what is the purpose for my existence?? My best guess for now is to PROTECT/HELP others, it make the most sense to me.
I know many friends, some stronger than other, but they all would need help someday, and since I have nothing else in my personal life, I would like to help them, w/e it may be.
Reflect on my life make me realize the important of life, therefore every unborn child deserve a chance to experience life, so I will do everything in my power to help them
I experience love from people all around me, from family to friend to society, therefore I must return such love by love others.
I might not be superman, but no one better hurt my family or my friends.
SOO until my real purpose sudden pop into my head, I would assume my purpose for existence is to help/protect those that close to me, to the utmost of my power.

yay, a LONG blog, sweet!! ^__^