Winter Come Early

Yesterday was warm, last night was cold, this morning was colder, and now... well.. it freezing. I love Texas weather... ^__^

lil update in my life...

It official... I can't play soccer anytime soon, I injured myself twice at the exact same spot, once in the rain, other in a windy day... SO yea, all i can do now is walk and pass the ball... =(

I love church music especially Christmas music, it sooo peaceful, calming, and really meaningful. I can recite most of the song in my head and often sing it when I was driving, give me peace and joy in one of the greatest season of the year.

Ochem finals.... one word.. wow.. it was really difficult....very detail, very long, and very difficult... It got to be one of the hardest exam I taken in years.. But at least it over.

Christmas play... I hate finding people for the parts.. I got some kids that BEG me for the part, other I personally ask and reject me because they think they are too coool... well, next time, I'll stop asking and start let kids sign up, and do the play base on amount of people sign up, save me the work.... For all those kids who have such high spirit, I LOVE you guys, you guys is the future of our church.. and I'll do anything in my power to get you guys the part in our church Christmas play.. I mean I direct a 5 min skit and so far, I got 35 students.. Don't worry about it, i'll get you guys a part.

Seating here writing a blog and recall my past experience, it hit me... I haven't got a real conversation with anyone for a long time. I guess the most recent conversation I have is with Kristen about religion and Anh about drinking stuff... and that only lasted 20-35 min or so... I haven't got a real conversation with any guy since MO in august. I like to talk but what happen to me?????? At TCU, I got my usual group of guys, Peter Don, Zack, and Brian... but we never have a real conversation.. just small talk.. same thing happen with my friend in ROTC, we also have small talk.. nothing major... and at church.. same thing.... I begin to notice that I began to talk less and less everyday... I specifically talk about guy because they are the one I usually talk to the most.. more things in common.. For girls that aren't my friends, our convo last 15 min or so, until I found something about her that i found unattractive... for girls that I know for a long time.. well, hi and bye, checking in on their life once in a while... for girls that I know and I meet daily... all we talk about is TV and school.. things I use to love to talk about doesn't play as big of a role in my life right now. Is it possible that I'm a introvert this whole time but wear a mask as a extrovert but still secretly a introvert?? hmmmmm

Christmas present,this year I decide not to celebrate Christmas as a consumerism but as a humbug. Beside, why spent so much time/money on Christmas present when you shouldn't have.. I'm going to get my parent, brother, and sister something because they're family, for everyone else.. I give "merry Christmas" handshake to the guys and hug for the girls.

I realize I haven't grown up yet, I still think responsibility is a bitch.. i hate to be responsible... I like to live freely and do everything on my own term.. but I also realize that I don't live in my own universe.. there thing that needed to be done and someone need to be responsible for it.. hope I can step up into the plate..

I got a 87 on my homosexual paper... start out strong but end up too opinionated.. but seriously.. who can really rationally defense moral.. especially in this time and age... everyone so "liberal" and "open", think about people "right" and "equality", sigh.... I don't know.. kids are soo screw up this day that I suddenly don't care anymore. if you don't want kids, don't be irresponsible and have sex, and if you think sex is the most important thing in your life, well, I think you need a new life.. and about people choice and right, well, some right must be restricted for the good of the whole.. if you part of that small minority.. tough luck and find something else to be passionate about..
"Passionate people are one step above stupid people"
Passion cloud rational... plain and simple

that it for now... back to study ^__^